It’s beyond important to have passion in your life. You should be working ferociously towards reaching your ideal situation, where your life feels like your own. Like you made this. This is what you always wanted, this is where you belong, these are your people, this is the best deal you could hope to have.
When talking about hentai, you could just as easily be talking about relationships. Because money is involved, there are many parallels. Just like you can’t hang on to a relationship for money alone, you can’t be doing commercial hentai for money alone. You need multiple reasons to stick with something.
Before we go further in elevating passion, let’s establish where the grass is. It’s seldom greener on the other side of the fence. Unknown problems await you on the other side.
It’s only after you made the switch that you begin to experience the offsets of your choice. You will discover, more often than not, that you simply changed the problems you now deal with. This is usually when regret sets in. Deep regret. You’ll even discover that you enjoyed some aspects of the problems of your previous choice of partner, workplace, hometown, etc.
Hentai is a source of income for many creators and entire companies. Many only do this for the lucrativeness. And this is a key component behind the toxicity of many workplaces. Because too many are doing hentai for the wrong reasons. You shouldn’t feel stressed about artistic eroticism. Something about your life went very, very wrong if your source of existential agony is anime titties.
It sounds absurd, right? Who would be suicidally depressed about anime girls? Believe it or not, surprisingly many are. Over the years, I had several business partners go through the craziest periods of soul-searching. It’s the most unfathomable part of this goddamn industry.
I had this moment once. I was excited from reviewing the work of my eroge writer who had understood my directions, which had taken hours and hours of back-and-forth voice chats. Despite a rocky start, which is normal before you sit down and narrow down the vision and feel of a project. We had made a connection, and as a result, his work excited me. I paid him a fat bonus and we walked out happy, deal complete. Right after that, I hopped on to resume online freelance work for this one company. My work for them had paid the writer. And immediately upon arriving in that space, my mood dropped like a stone.
I went from heaven to hell in a heartbeat. Even though I knew the company was full of people who were doing hentai mainly for money, the contrast suddenly became unbearable. It was so quick! Nobody understood why I lost my fucking mind in that moment.
I went so fucking nuts, my manager was aghast. You’ll have to imagine the sequence of events, because I won’t ever give them, but a singing dinosaur video was involved!
To any company employees or CEOs reading this, like whoever at Kagura Games keeps stalking our site for eerily aligned publishing decisions, if you’re the number-crunching logical type, what I’m explaining here may be unfathomable to you. That’s why I’m writing this.
Too many eroge companies do not understand how us creatives think. Most us are oriented towards reaching a fulfilling life where we are paid to do what we love. You should not be putting people into a project who are not passionate about the project. A couple are fine, but not an entire fucking team.
That’s when the dinosaur songs start popping. It’s on those miserable moments when you realize that you’re not where you belong, you’re not with the people you’re supposed to be with.
It’s the same with relationships. When you find yourselves not talking, having no desire to talk to reach other, you’re both living your own lives, pursuing interests that take you into different spaces, it’s usually downhill from there. Because you’ll eventually have that moment, you come home, high with excitement from whatever sports or arts or social gathering you’ve been to, bursting with so much passion to share, and all you get is a grunt. Why am I even with this asshole?
The misalignment in companies and relationships that makes people ask “the fuck am I doing with my life” often comes from just 20% of what you do, as per Pareto principle. I encourage you to identify the 20% of shit you do that contributes to 80% of the problems and hyper-focus on that.
To clarify, I don’t want you hopping between jobs and relationships. I want you to have foresight.
Because if you don’t know yourself, you will have no foresight. You will keep making choices that lead you on a path towards an end that you will hate. Sometime down the line, you’ll find yourself in the darkest mood, having spent so much energy and time and money into pursuing something that failed.
Now, before you do anything stupid inspired by this writeup, let’s touch grass again. Your feelings are merely signals. They are nebulous impulses. They don’t have intelligence. Hold on to your horses.
Feelings can be influenced by anything. You could be eating something with chemicals that’s messing with your gut bacteria. Messed up gut bacteria can fuck with your mood. If you have any mood disorders, they could be hormonal. Feel depressed, read this now. Don’t go booking yourself a transgender surgery, rather make an appointment with a doctor who does your blood work. Don’t go choosing random genders!
Listen to the beating of your heart and the raspiness of your breath. What is your truth? Sort out all the clutter, all the messiness up there, like cleaning your attic. Throw out what’s not of value, keep what has value to you. See who sticks around after you no longer hold back what you truly feel and think. Stop playing office politics with people you share a space with. What can’t be burnt, won’t be burnt by light.
It’s only after you abandon the false incentives that keep you trapped on a dead-end path that your life can begin to take the shape of something human. Something livable. Something valuable.
Next, you might want to read how to have lasting happiness in your life.
